Recreation-less
Since I'm back, I've been swamped with the reality of being home. Which means, an erractic schedule and lots of yummy food to tempt my taste buds.
My dad just showed me the newspaper article on the terrible weather in Beijing, which is -9 degrees Celsius. I probably can't stay out for long in that case, but I still have to go. My only concern is being stalled at the airport or along the highway.
This is one year I am not in tuned with the X'mas season. I've always loved X'mas for all the shopping malls are beautifully decorated and Christmas songs fill the atriums. Shopping bags are much prettier and it's always nice to see people having presents wrapped and ribboned. It's the hustle and bustle of the whole festive mood that I love to be part of. But I reckon it's because I've been away for some time, and haven't actually gone X'mas shopping this year that caused my sense of detachness. Or maybe I'm just trying to brace myself for 25th Dec being just another day in Beijing.
I'm tired everyday, and yet I don't feel my weariness is justified. Maybe because I haven't actually done any work. That is, I can't quantify what I've done in a day.
Today I went location receeing, and I've set my sights on The Gallery at the Arts House. The only problem is, rental is going to so bust my budget. For a weekend booking, I will probably need to set aside a minimum of 10K, excluding set up costs. I'm writing to them and hoping for the best, otherwise, I'll need to look at either cutting costs in other areas, get more sponsors, or change location. Then again, that is if The Gallery is available for the time frame I am looking at.
I've gotten used to doing things alone, and this new found independence has upped my maturity level a tiny notch. Still, it doesn't mean I don't enjoy company. Sometimes, it's about finding the right companion. My time is never fixed, so is my mood, so for instance today, I wanted to just throw back my heels and watch a movie at 7pm, but walking into the cinema alone just didn't seem that appealing. I much rather head home to be in the company of my brother who's addicted to Maplestory. So I did. And had to contend with consolidating my accounts for my trip, work out the budget, send emails to public affairs people regarding location rental and fretting about my story angle.
Sigh.
I do feel a little old. Old acquaintances at work who haven't seen me in a long time commented on how I seem to look different. A lot less bubbly and girlish, more mature and womanly. A couple of them commented on my face. One asked if I went for plastic surgery because I just don't look like me. Maybe it's the long hair.
Maybe not.
On the contrary, some fellow colleagues are looking better and more radiant.
GLOWING was the word used to describe them by a close friend of mine.
On the 4th, my make-up artiste told me my skin looks tired.
I FEEL tired.
I don't know where my energy has gone. I don't know why I'm no longer in high spirits.
Maybe it's the time of the month.
Or maybe I need some recreation to rejuvenate myself.
Double sigh.
Some people say it's good that I lay off drama for now, give me time to recharge and when I get back to it, it'd be a fresh appearance.
Now I'm not so sure. Because really, did I stop working to re-charge?
I stopped working because I had exams.
After exams I had to do my FYP. Now that I'm back from Beijing, I'm working again. And then it's back to FYP on the 20th and then back to drama in Jan and then back to FYP in Feb and then back to drama in April and then back to exams in end April, and then graduate in July and back to work.
How does that make me "lucky" (as some colleagues echoed) that I don't have any dramas lined up, I don't know.
At work, you may concurrently be holding on to several projects, let's say 2 variety shows and 1 drama. Your time has to be shared by these 3 groups of people. On top of that, you have the occasional requests to make an appearance, sing a song, or play some games. But bear in mind, you only need to know when you need to turn up for what, then make sure you know what you need to do, whether it's memorise scripts or learn a song, because everything is pieced together by a group of hard workers in the artiste management. Which means, you don't have to personally negotiate how to divide your time for these commitments.
For me, I am my own manager when it comes to all things related to school. From setting my own deadlines, to talking to the right people, working on the content, producing the end product. All these while making sure artiste management is well aware, so they can work out my work schedule around this.
If you ask me, I think I have a tougher job to handle.
So, give me a break about my zits, my contours, my weight, my hair.
Life's not as easy as it seems and I'm beginning to feel the reigns around my neck.
My dad just showed me the newspaper article on the terrible weather in Beijing, which is -9 degrees Celsius. I probably can't stay out for long in that case, but I still have to go. My only concern is being stalled at the airport or along the highway.
This is one year I am not in tuned with the X'mas season. I've always loved X'mas for all the shopping malls are beautifully decorated and Christmas songs fill the atriums. Shopping bags are much prettier and it's always nice to see people having presents wrapped and ribboned. It's the hustle and bustle of the whole festive mood that I love to be part of. But I reckon it's because I've been away for some time, and haven't actually gone X'mas shopping this year that caused my sense of detachness. Or maybe I'm just trying to brace myself for 25th Dec being just another day in Beijing.
I'm tired everyday, and yet I don't feel my weariness is justified. Maybe because I haven't actually done any work. That is, I can't quantify what I've done in a day.
Today I went location receeing, and I've set my sights on The Gallery at the Arts House. The only problem is, rental is going to so bust my budget. For a weekend booking, I will probably need to set aside a minimum of 10K, excluding set up costs. I'm writing to them and hoping for the best, otherwise, I'll need to look at either cutting costs in other areas, get more sponsors, or change location. Then again, that is if The Gallery is available for the time frame I am looking at.
I've gotten used to doing things alone, and this new found independence has upped my maturity level a tiny notch. Still, it doesn't mean I don't enjoy company. Sometimes, it's about finding the right companion. My time is never fixed, so is my mood, so for instance today, I wanted to just throw back my heels and watch a movie at 7pm, but walking into the cinema alone just didn't seem that appealing. I much rather head home to be in the company of my brother who's addicted to Maplestory. So I did. And had to contend with consolidating my accounts for my trip, work out the budget, send emails to public affairs people regarding location rental and fretting about my story angle.
Sigh.
I do feel a little old. Old acquaintances at work who haven't seen me in a long time commented on how I seem to look different. A lot less bubbly and girlish, more mature and womanly. A couple of them commented on my face. One asked if I went for plastic surgery because I just don't look like me. Maybe it's the long hair.
Maybe not.
On the contrary, some fellow colleagues are looking better and more radiant.
GLOWING was the word used to describe them by a close friend of mine.
On the 4th, my make-up artiste told me my skin looks tired.
I FEEL tired.
I don't know where my energy has gone. I don't know why I'm no longer in high spirits.
Maybe it's the time of the month.
Or maybe I need some recreation to rejuvenate myself.
Double sigh.
Some people say it's good that I lay off drama for now, give me time to recharge and when I get back to it, it'd be a fresh appearance.
Now I'm not so sure. Because really, did I stop working to re-charge?
I stopped working because I had exams.
After exams I had to do my FYP. Now that I'm back from Beijing, I'm working again. And then it's back to FYP on the 20th and then back to drama in Jan and then back to FYP in Feb and then back to drama in April and then back to exams in end April, and then graduate in July and back to work.
How does that make me "lucky" (as some colleagues echoed) that I don't have any dramas lined up, I don't know.
At work, you may concurrently be holding on to several projects, let's say 2 variety shows and 1 drama. Your time has to be shared by these 3 groups of people. On top of that, you have the occasional requests to make an appearance, sing a song, or play some games. But bear in mind, you only need to know when you need to turn up for what, then make sure you know what you need to do, whether it's memorise scripts or learn a song, because everything is pieced together by a group of hard workers in the artiste management. Which means, you don't have to personally negotiate how to divide your time for these commitments.
For me, I am my own manager when it comes to all things related to school. From setting my own deadlines, to talking to the right people, working on the content, producing the end product. All these while making sure artiste management is well aware, so they can work out my work schedule around this.
If you ask me, I think I have a tougher job to handle.
So, give me a break about my zits, my contours, my weight, my hair.
Life's not as easy as it seems and I'm beginning to feel the reigns around my neck.
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